Ridiculousness

Life is fucking ridiculous. When you think you have all of it, no. There would just be some dumb problems so no way you'll live happily ever after, that would only exist in fairytales. Fucking ridiculous.

Appreciation is always a problem.

It took me a year to finally say yes, to someone who will never take me as a long term story. 

Apparently the reason for the attraction was my friendliness and smile. I don't know this fact anymore; it never came into place after the first month. Or maybe I'm no longer attractive.

Clearly, again, I am not being appreciated. Or in order to achieve attention is when one is no longer in this world. Why cant people learn how to appreciate what's now? Don't regret for not being there when one needed you to be, only to be there for one's wake.